When it comes to relationships,
I can’t have one foot in, and one foot out.
I’m all in, or nothing at all.
I give everything I am to relationships –
No matter how brief – no matter how momentary
And then I wonder why it is
That I’m so exhausted when they end.
I wonder why it is that only at the end
Do I feel like I’ve just found myself, once again.
I wish I could record my thoughts
And then play them back until I could write
Every single one of them down
Because everything always feels so fleeting
That by the time I go to press my pen to a page
Everything I imagined is already gone.
It’s amazing what can happen in 3 years
And what can happen in 2 months
It’s amazing how something so small
Can weigh so much more
Than everything else.